From the moment we are born, numbers shape our reality. We measure time, track progress, and assign value based on quantity. In the world of plant medicine, this obsession with numbers is just as prevalent—the heroic dose, the microdose, the milligrams carefully measured, the comparisons in conversation. But what if these numbers are an illusion? What if healing is not found in measurement, but in essence?

The Conditioning of Measurement

Our minds crave structure, and numbers provide a sense of certainty. In plant medicine, many believe that more equals deeper healing—that a larger dose guarantees a more profound breakthrough. Others lean toward control, meticulously measuring micrograms, hoping for the perfect balance. While there is wisdom in responsible dosing, healing does not live in numbers alone.

During a journey, the medicine showed me this truth in a way I could no longer ignore. Numbers are a human creation. The plants do not count, yet they heal. They do not measure, yet they transform. The moment we release our grip on numbers, we step into the realm of trust—the realm where true medicine begins.

Healing is a Relationship, Not a Calculation

When we approach plant medicine from a purely numerical perspective, we risk missing the deeper invitation. Healing with sacred plants is a relationship—a dialogue between the spirit of the medicine and the soul of the one receiving it.

• It is not the volume of medicine that heals, but the connection we cultivate with it.
• It is not the weight of the dose, but the depth of surrender.
• It is not about reaching a certain number, but allowing the medicine to work in its own divine timing.

Some of the most profound transformations come from small doses, slow integration, and deep listening. A gentle whisper from the medicine can carry more wisdom than the loudest visions from a high dose.

Trust the Process, Not the Numbers

So what if we released our attachment to numbers? What if instead of fixating on “how much” we asked “how deep?” What if we stopped measuring healing in doses and started measuring it in presence, surrender, and self-discovery?

Healing is not a race, and transformation cannot be quantified. The medicine knows the way. Go slow. Move gracefully. Trust the process.

Sodashi ~ Return to Self